Hi everyone,
Yes, as the title says life is well…going along nicely at its own pace at the moment. No real ups or downs, which if you are a regular reader of this blog you will know is an unusual thing!!!!
I am going well with my study and am quitely confident that I am able to hold my own in the intellectual discussions and critiques needed to complete my uni subject. I have a nice tutor who is willing to spend the time with me to hear me talk my ideas outloud over the phone every now and again, which is good because I am getting weekly feed back to my emailed answers. I know that this won’t happenned all the time, and in other subjects but for now when I am just starting off, it is such a wonderful help which I am going to make full advantage of.
On Friday I found out that I am to be awarded a Commonwealth Learning Scholarship. These are given when getting an education is a struggle on top of your other family expenses, so it is given to help with any educational costs. This is the one I had to get all the documents for a couple of weeks ago. You know, the birth certificates etc…They certainly wanted alot of stuff, but I guess there is only so much money to go around, and they want to give it to the right people.
They give you about $1000 each semester. So this semester we are going to upgrade our ancient computer it needs more space on the hard drive or something. It is very full, and we really can’t afford a new one. We will also get broadband. I hope that this will give us a much faster computer by the time it is all done. I know that $1000 a semester sounds alot, but it is amazing how much just something like your text books can cost these days. One book can be over $100!!!!
I have been going along well with my therapy. The therapist is a ordinary sort of man, not just an intellectual, but with alot of common sense. My home work he has given me this month is to have 15 mins a day alone with my DH, no kids. Then 2 solid hours a month, and 3 weekends a year, as well. Can’t even imagine the weekends, haven’t had 3 weekends alone total since we had our eldest!! But he said these weekends don’t have to be ‘dirty weekends’ away all the time, but just maybe getting all the kids away on sleep overs and staying home to potter around together. Sounds very nice to me.
I like to spend time with my DH, but I like my own time as well, as does he. I think our favourite time is being quiet together, reading the paper and sharing stuff we read everynow and again. We like to go for Sunday drives to. It is funny having to actually figure out again, what we have in common still besides the kids.
Just lately I am also finding that there is some foundation to me feeling better about myself as well. My dreams if they are bad ones, are always about being not believe, and being put down. But I have had two dreams lately where I have had circumstances where I have been praised and admired. You can’t imagine what a relevation it has been to me, how deep my fears and anxieties actually did run and how set they are in my brain paths.
It is nice to know that things are changing, and on such a basic and primitive level. I now know that I can trust my gut feeling that I am on the real road to recovery this time. Just got to remember not to jinx it, or ruin it with pushing myself too quickly and falling into grief again.
Well, the my little family just went off to the parent’s farm to do some serious watering of the garden before they arrive home on Tuesday. The DS16.5 is driving and they all looked happy. He had a bit of a scare on the way to soccer the other night with some loon overtaking on the other side fo the road, on double lines, on a corner. Gave my son quite a scare, but he recover his vehicle well, and my husband said he was extremely proud of how our son handled both the vehicle and the situation. He didn’t lose his cool, and kept control of the steering and brakes very professionally. When they had driven on, my husband told my son how well he did, and that now he had recovered it was now time to call the other driver a stupid …..head” or some such thing! 
Nothing like father-son education!
Well yes, the parents are still off fishing. We just got sickening photos on DH’s work phone of some huge mud crabs that they caught this morning, (so much for being sick of fishing!) and now they are having these massive things for lunch at my brother’s place in Humpty Doo, NT. We did send a message back asking for some to come back with them for us, but there was no answer. Funny that. 
Today is a lovely autumn Atherton Tablelands day. Brilliant sunshine with a brisk cool breeze. DS 11 has gone out on Lake Tinaroo with a friend’s family, who own a little speed boat. Lucky bugger ! They seemed to have a tyre thingy that can be towed behind for the boys to hold on to. So as my DD15.5 said, he will be bronzed, tired and cranky as when he gets home around 5pm today. But what a lucky kid to have friends who will take him out to do that. We really do live in God’s own country here.
Well, this is it for me today. I am feeling very partial to a nice afternoon snooze, all wrapped up in my doona. Earplugs in of course, so that I don’t hear that next door neighbour’s freaking rooster, Rodney. Honestly, he was up at 2 am this morning crowing, then again at 4am then intermitantly during the day as well. I love animals, and I know that if I do report him to the council he will surely be Chicken history, but the time is coming closer where I am not going to give a rat’s arse what happens to him…and poor Rodney will go to the big Chicken coop in the sky where he can crow to his heart’s content.
Bye for now,
